Another list, if you will

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“If all else fails, immortality can always be assured by spectacular error.”

-John Kenneth Galbraith

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A grey winter morning makes for the best thinking weather. As the world becomes less vibrant and the grey hue settles on every stale corner of the city, my thoughts become flat and I turn on autopilot. I have no need for inspiration. I am not aroused nor are my interests piqued. I simply process information, allowing my mind to wander as it pleases. This is when I start to remember things. One memory leads to another like word association. I challenge myself to recall instances as perfectly as I can. I string events together chronologically to form full years worth of memories. I wish I could go back and feel some of those feelings for the first time again. So many things were so important and so influential to me when they happened. And now there is no point in mentioning them again. I’m heartbroken that so many seemingly important things will remain forgotten.

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Look at where you are

Look at where you started

The fact that you’re alive is a miracle

Just stay alive, that would be enough

And if this child

Shares a fraction of your smile

Or a fragment of your mind, look out world!

That would be enough

I don’t pretend to know

The challenges you’re facing

The worlds you keep erasing and creating in your mind

But I’m not afraid, I know who I married

So long as you come home at the end of the day

That would be enough

We don’t need a legacy

We don’t need money

If I could grant you peace of mind

If you could let me inside your heart… Oh, let me be a part of the narrative

In the story they will write someday

Let this moment be the first chapter:

Where you decide to stay

And I could be enough

And we could be enough

That would be enough

That Would Be Enough, Lin-Manuel Miranda, Hamilton

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We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that, in the end, we become disguised to ourselves.”

-Francois de laRochefoucauld

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I don’t think we give people enough leeway to change their mind. Changing your mind is one of the most human and important things you can do. It tells the world that you are able to learn and understand new information and apply it to what you knew before. Sometimes this new information will mean nothing. And sometimes it will mean everything.

Society teaches a lot of really, really good ideas and lessons about each other, such as politeness and the importance of sharing your knowledge. But it also teaches us some pretty horrible things too, like body shaming and misogyny. We must, as individuals and as a community, fight against those bad ideas. And this is going to require a lot of people to change their minds.

So the next time we accuse someone of flip-flopping lets first take a look at what their morals were before and what they are now, and judge them on their ability address new information. Changing one’s mind signals progress and development – don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

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“Coming home from very lonely places, all of us go a little mad; whether from great personal success or just an all-night drive, we are the sole survivors of a world no one else has ever seen.”

-John la Carre

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I have way too much stuff. Today I threw out two garbage bags full of clothes. I’ll throw out another one in a few days. I still have boxes of things my parents gave me when they moved. The passage to my closet is layered with clothes and I am not sure I want to venture into the depths of black and grey cotton. I think instead I will wear the same thing I wore yesterday.

I want there to be meaning behind every possession I have. I want to be able to tell the story or the memory that each object holds. I wish, “I like it” was good enough for me. But then again I don’t know what’s good enough for me.

It’s hard to throw away things until they are gone. Then it’s the easiest thing in the word.

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“It is not bigotry to be certain we are right; but it is bigotry to be unable to imagine how we might possibly have gone wrong.”

-G.K. Chersterson

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